Heaven’s Newest Angel

This is the post I knew I would have to write but hoped I wouldn’t have to for a long time. I prayed for a miracle. Now I realize I had my miracle by getting to be Sammy’s mom. He was such a special boy and he loved me the most (all the other cats prefer my hubby). He always wanted to be with me and I spent more time with him than anyone else in my life even my hubby.

We tried to buy time with the thyroid food, but his kidneys couldn’t tolerate it. The kidney food was keeping him stable, but his body was being eaten away by the thyroid. He couldn’t even close his eyes all the way.  Over the weekend, he got even weaker and we knew we would have to say goodbye. His Dad and I were with him and I cut off a big chunk of my hair to go with him because he always slept in my hair.

Thank you all for the purrs and prayers and for caring about my boy. And thank you to Ann of Zoolatry for this beautiful badge (above).

And to Ingrid for the 2 beautiful badges below.

And thank you to Pam for this lovely poem:

Into our lives they come on furry feet
Full of love, and life, they are so sweet
They are part of our soul and our heart
We can only just barely stand to be apart!
They show us the way to live in love
Until the day they fly to Heaven above
Then in dreams they come to soothe our soul
The sadness fades as our angels console
Memories are permanent – they never go away
The joy of having Sammy will FOREVER stay.
He loved to help decorate the Christmas tree.
Sammy was a proud Cat Scout since 2014.
He was a great hat model
He loved all the holidays.
He loved to help assemble things.
He really enjoyed rolling in catnip.


He loved corn on the cob.


He looked extra handsome in a sweater.


And his favorite spot of all was sleeping in my hair all night.

My life will never be the same without my Sammy.  I was so blessed to be his mom.

I will start posting again next week.


  1. I am sorry for your loss and wish you downhere and Sammy upthere Consolation and Guidance.
    With love, Yvon

  2. I’m so very sorry for the loss of your sweet Sammy. I know you loved him so and he loved you back.

    Big healing hugs, my friend. ♥

  3. This breaks my heart. I know how much you meant to each other. We loved Sammy too and will miss him a lot. We’re sending you purrs and prayers to help you through this.

  4. Dear Ellen and David, Though I knew this was coming sooner than later, my heart is breaking for you both. Sammy was an absolute sweetheart, and I am happy we had so many years to get to know him on the blog and especially at Cat Scouts. I know what it is to lose a heart cat and do know what you are feeling. Please know that all your friends are grieving with you and send prayers, love and warm hugs. If it is okay, we will remember and honor Sammy on next Sunday’s selfie post. 😿😘💓💖💗❣️🌺 Janet and all the Kitties Blue

  5. Oh awnty Ellen, our hearts are broken. We didn’t even wanna read this posty cuz we didn’t want this to be real. But, it is real. And, we will never be the same. We will miss Sammy so much. We’re sending lots of hugs, purrs, and purrayers. Ifin you need anything, purrlease let us know.

    Luvs ya’

    RaenaBelle, Zebby, and mommy A

  6. shop vac; ♥♥♥ may you roll in catnip to your hearts content; may you eat corn on the cob until the fields are empty; may you will always wear a trout towne hat, as a member of “the family”. we love you dood, today, tomorrow and always. we are truly sorry and send hugs and loves to you, dad, the family you leave behind here on earth, and most of all ~~~~ mom ♥♥♥♥♥

    dai$y, mackerull
    and dude, sauce, boomer and tuna

  7. oh I’ m so so sorry. I’d hoped that you’d have a bit more time with him, but you did the kindest thing to let him go. I know he was your special guy. Tucker was like that for me–my heart cat. Sending love and purrs.

  8. I’m so sorry to read this sad and painful news about Sammy. I hope you can find some comfort in the warm memories of such an adorable boy. You’re in my thoughts, Ellen.

  9. My heart breaks for you. May the comfort of God’s love be with through this time of mourning. Much love to you, Deborah

  10. I am sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you. He will be missed by all.
    Sue and Jake

  11. So very loved by all
    Always kind
    Mom’s best side kick
    Mellow guy with eyes of gold
    You gave and received love with out bounds

    Run free my friend and may the sadness your siblings and parents have soon be replaced by all the years of joy you gave them.
    With love, prayers and hugs

    Ellen I’m so very sorry…no matter how many times you walk this path it is never easy. You made the ultimate
    loving decision to send Sammy on to a place with love, no pain.

  12. Oh Ellen, I am heartbroken to read this. You and Sammy had a wonderful life together and I hope the memories will bring you peace and comfort.

  13. It seems odd to “like” this post. I’m so sorry and my heart goes out to you for your loss. He was a beauty and will be missed. Our Bridget just turned 16 years old and she has kidney issues too. I know her time is coming……
    On a lighter note, our daughter and two grand girls just adopted two rescue cats to add to their family. 💜

  14. Oh Ellen, I’m so very sorry and the tears are flowing here too. Your special guy Sammy will always be special in your heart. Hugs and love from us.

  15. Poor Sammy. Please accept my condolences and lots of hugs at this sad time. It never is easy, even when one realizes it is best for the pet that life has passed out. He can’t suffer any longer.

  16. Ellen, I will write more in a while. This has just caused me to crash and burn. I know how you felt and feel. Sending all my love nd comfort.

  17. Deerest Aunty Ellen wee are heart broked that Sammy Cat had to go off to Purr Land….hee sure was an amazin an wunderfull man cat!!
    You did efurrything you cuud fore Sammy an hee loved you 150% purr cent….
    May Sammy’ss memoree bee fore a blessin…..
    Run free Sammy…’angel’ Unkell Purrince Siddhartha will take guud care of you!
    Sendin you all our <3 <3 an ***purrss*** an (((hugss)))
    BellaSita Mum an BellaDharma

  18. Ellen and David, we are so sorry for your loss. Sammy was a very sweet cat and he was loved by all. I am glad that I got to know him and spend time with him at Cat Scouts. Love, Andy and Judy

  19. We are so sorry to read this. Sending comforting purrz. We thought and hoped you’d have more time too. What a wonderful tribute to a wonderful boy. Lots of virtual {{{hugs}}}.

  20. The very saddest of news. Such a sweet boy who I think one a place in every one’s hearts. Our hearts reach out to you both at this time.
    Gentle purrs
    Erin and Mrs H

  21. I am always at a loss to think of any words that would help relieve the burden of your grief, because I know how shallow they are at a time like this. All I know is that there is no feeling as emptying of our hearts as that of a beloved being in our lives. I truly am deeply sorry for the loss of your dearest Sammy. From my own personal losses I understand how the permanence of loss is like a deep void of emptiness and sadness. It is difficult knowing that these beings we bring into our lives and homes, have a shorter life span than our own, and that we say goodbye to them before we would ever wish, but oh the unconditional love we share and knowing that you shared their whole life is a special gift that will always be with you. Prayers and purrs to you.

  22. We’re so very sorry for your loss of Sammy. Our hearts and purrs are with you. Sending you our love.

  23. We’re so sorry to learn of Sammy’s passing. It’s been years since we’ve pet-blogged, but we know how deeply loved he was by so many. Our purrs and purrayers to you at this heart-breaking time.

  24. Dearest Ms. Ellen, we’ve all been purraying for a different outcome. At least you now have a guardian angel that adores you.

  25. Ms. Ellen, We are all heartbroken, even though We knew, deep inside, that this day was not far away. Sammy will always be a part of you – and of his extended family, all his friends throughout the Blogoverse.
    We will never forget you, Sammy. Purrs and hugs to your earthly family, feline and human, as they mourn your passing.
    You will all be reunited, one day. Till that day comes, fly free, Sammy, safe in rhe Paw of rhe Great Cat in the Sky.

  26. I am so very, very sorry to hear about Sammy. There’s nothing that eases a loss like this except time and the knowledge that you gave him his very best life, and were a loving and steady presence throughout his last illness and with him as he crossed the Bridge. I’m pretty sure Spitty was right there in the welcoming committee on the other side. Sending you much love and all Gigi and Buddy’s very best purrs.

  27. Sending snuggles and purrayers from Maggie May and Suki (aka “Princess Fluffybutt). The hardest thing we ever have to do is to do the best thing for them. You will catch glimpses of him, going around a corner or maybe feel a little tug of your hair and you will know he’s still there, watching.
    Hugs from Illinois

  28. We’re so very sorry to read this sad news. Even though we haven’t cat-blogged in years, we know how widely loved Sammy was and always will be. Our purrs and purrayers to you at this heart-breaking time.

  29. I keep typing and retyping my message to you here, because it’s so hard to find the words for such a big loss of such a special boy. Your Sammy was so blessed to have you, Ellen. I know you mentioned how you were so blessed to have him, and that certainly is so true, but never forget how lucky Sammy was to have you. You gave him such an wonderful life filled with so much love, and he will always be with you. Until you meet again.

    Purrs, prayers, and hugs to you, Ellen.

  30. So sorry to hear that your dear Sammy has crossed the Rainbow Bridge. It’s so hard to let them go, and we miss them so much. Be comforted that he shared his love with you and your family. He knew he was loved. (((hugs))) <3

  31. I would give anything if I could say the words I am feeling so deeply for you but they just won’t come. I love your Sammy like he was my own – as did so many others who knew him. I know FOR SURE he had a huge welcome committee at the Bridge though because he had so many friends and admirers – one of whom was “my” Sammy. I know the pain – but I also know in time it turns into a bearable ache. I’m equally sure he will let you know in some way he’s ok………….

    Love and Hugs, Pam

  32. Brokenhearted for you and Sammy♥ I am so sorry, Ellen. He was your boy. All I can do is offer hugs, lots of them. And please know you both are in my heart and thoughts. I am sure it was very busy at the Rainbow Bridge, I know Sammy was very loved by many.

  33. I am so very sorry for the loss of sweet Sammy. We’re sending purrs and hugs your way.

  34. Oh Ellen I am so deeply sorry. I know how hard it is to lose “the one”, the one that is the closest to us. (Roary prefers my husband and Bobo and Cody preferred me), which makes it so much worse. I am so deeply, deeply sorry. My heart goes out to you. (((hugs))) and love, Sammy will be missed.

  35. Oh Sammy ~ you are going to be missed every minute ~ sweet photos of you and lots of distant reiki healing energy hugs to your Mom and Dad ~ it is so hard to lose our fur babies ~ Xo

    Wishing you love and laughter in your days,

    A ShutterBug Explores,
    aka (A Creative Harbor)

  36. Charlee: “Aww, we’re very sorry to hear that sweet Sammy had to go away.”
    Chaplin: “Run free over the Rainbow Bridge, Sammy, and be sure to stop by Tucker’s Everlasting Rainbow Bridge Buffet to meet Trouble, Pooh Bear, Dennis, and Trixie, and get some special kitty treats.”
    Charlee: “We send lots of purrs your way at this difficult time.”
    Lulu: “And I send fluffy tail wags!”

  37. Ellen, I’m sending deep condolences and purrs of comfort. Dear Sammy was a very special boy and will be missed. May his memory be a blessing xo

  38. We are so sorry to read this. You and Sammy were so blessed to have eachother, but that does not ease the pain. Purrs and purrayers/

  39. Hi Ellen, I am so sorry to hear about your Sammy. He looks like such a sweet boy, and a good sport, too. I’m sure your heart will ache for him, but he’s still there inside you. I hope the time will come when you can think of Sammy without tears. Love never dies.

  40. Such very sad news, Ellen! It’s heartbreaking. Sammy has been around as long as we have. Austin and I send lots of hugs and gentle purrs ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  41. Ellen, I am so very sorry for your loss. We were all hoping Sammy could stick around for another ten years. Sending purrs, prayers and hugs.

  42. I am so very sorry, Ellen. I had hoped he would have longer with you but it wasn’t to be. It always hurts to lose a member of the family, but I know how much worse it is to lose your heart cat. Try to take consolation in knowing he is young and healthy again and will be patiently waiting for the day you meet again.

  43. Oh, Ellen, oh, sadness. No words exist for not having your Sammy with you. No words will. We are thinking of your life with Sammy and now your terrible loss. So much love from us to you.

  44. This is the saddest news any “cat mum” gets. We love our cats so much.
    There is usually one cat that loves us back more than the others. That was your Sammy.
    For me it is Julie. This is a loss that is harder to recover from. I send you much love and know you will never forget this special boy. Hugs!!!!!
    Nancy and Julie

  45. We are so very sorry to hear this. Our hearts are breaking for you and Chimera is going to miss Sammy so much at Scouts. ((Hugs))purrs of comfort and paws of sympathy from all of us here at ATCAD.

  46. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. My heart is just breaking for you. Sammy was very special to the entire cat blogging community. You have been blessed to be his mom and he was blessed by being with you. If there is anything we can do, please let us know. Manna, Dexter, and I will be praying and purring for you. *hugs*

  47. What a loss. I know it is hard. I wish I could say something comforting, but I doubt anything helps. Take care.

  48. I have been worried about Sammy (and the rest of you) as I read about how ill Sammy was. The joy Sammy brought into the blogosphere (and our lives) was immeasurable. His presence was a gift. He will be greatly missed and never forgotten. I wish I could be there to comfort you as you grieve. I’m holding you in my heart.
    With all my Love,

  49. So sorry for your loss. Sammy was you heart kitty. You listed so many things that Sammy loved, but you left out the most important one – Sammy loved YOU!!! You gave him a great life and it was filled with love and good care. Soft woos and gentle hugs from all of us.

    The OP Pack

  50. Oh, Ellen, my heart hurts for you. I’m really sad to hear this. I’m so sorry about Sammy. Sending you lots of love and hugs as you process the grief. xo

  51. Oh Ellen, I’m so sorry. Even when it’s not unexpected, it hurts. Sure, there’s always hope, but when you know, you know. Please accept my deepest sympathy. I was rushing through emails this morning when I read this, and I choked up after heading to your blog. Again, I am so very sorry, and I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Be well and take the time you need to start to heal. Sammy will never leave your heart, we all know. Take care- Cleo’s dad

  52. I’m so sorry you didn’t have more time. I hope your gratitude for having Sammy in your life, and happy memories will help heal your heart.

  53. Oh Ellen. We are heartbroken to hear of Sammy’s passing. He was amazing and special, and we are thankful that he had such a loving forever home there. Thank you for loving him so much, and so well. Sending you love and gentle purrs and prayers.

  54. It seem wrong to ‘like’ this post so I just couldn’t hit that button. 💔 I’m so sorry for the loss of your Sammy boy. Bless you for your loving care and always keeping his best interests at heart in the long run. May your tears of sadness turn to tears of joy whenever you recall tender memories spent together. Hugs and tail wags from all of us at the Ranch.

  55. We are sincerely sad to learn of Sammy’s passing. May his memories bring you joy while your heart mends. You were so blessed to have him pick you to love.

  56. I am so sorry to hear about Sammy. He was a special boy, a friend to all, and a wonderful cat scout. He lived a great life and will be forever remembered. Hugs.

  57. I am so, so sorry, Ellen. I know you had hoped for more time with Sammy. I also know you made the most of the time you did have. My heart is with you. RIP sweet Sammy. ♥

  58. I am very sorry to read of Sammy’s passing. Those who have given so much always seem to have more to give, and too little time to give it. Godspeed, Sammy.

  59. i AM SO VERY SORRY TO HEAR THIS NEWS! BUt you are right-it was a miracle that you two found each other. You were lucky to be his mom-i think it’s lovely that you were with him and cut off a chunk of hair to go with him because he always slept in your hair. Hug!

  60. Sammy, what a treasured boy and so lucky to have found you! I’m so sorry to hear of his passing. You have condolences from all of us ~ Tom, Bridget, Penny and housekeeper Julie xxxx

  61. So very sorry to hear that your sweet Sammy crossed that rainbow bridge. It is such a hard thing for us to let them go but we know in our hearts it’s the right choice for them. He was such a sweet cat, I enjoyed reading about his life and all the joy he brought into yours. I pray for comfort and peace in your sweet memories of him.

  62. Your post made me smile with pride at Sammy’s Cat Scout membership, his corn cob passion and his love of you. You have lost the most amazing cat and I am so sorry.

    Fly Free Sammy, you leave broken hearts behind.

  63. Just a simple note to say love and prayers have been sent and I will continue them. Sammy was your sweet boy. Oh how sad I am for you. God Bless You. Your words here and photos were such a tribute to this gentle boy. GOD BLESS YOU my friend.

  64. Sammy, we are devastated to learn mew got your wings and departed for the Rainbow Realm, RIP Dude, we’ll never forget mew💔🌈💔 and we send oodles of hugs, love and purrs to your Mom and family at this sad time.

  65. We are so sorry about Sammy and so sorry we are so late paying our respects. Mama has taken a big long break after Matt passed and is just now reading all her emails. Pawrayers that you are all doing well and your hearts are healing.

    Matilda & Mama

    1. Thank you. No need to apologize. I know you were dealing with your own loss. XO

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